“Racial oppression should always be an emotional topic to discuss. It should always be anger-inducing. As long as racism exists to ruin the lives of countless people of color, it should be something that upsets us. But it upsets us … Continue reading
I am reblogging because crippled scholar is such a valuable blog to me because it helps me get beyond myself. Plus I’m frustrated with people not following through on the things they say they care about. Later today I’m writing about our general apathy and caring, but not really caring in regards to gun reform. So check that out later, but for now please read and really take in her words and if you can, donate, because her blog is so important and we all need to step up with our money and our time instead of wasting lip service.
On Thursday, Rachel Maddow asked “Who campaigns on gutting the American’s with Disabilities Act?” in a segment that included no interviews with disabled people. Who campaigns on gutting the Americans With Disabilities Act??? pic.twitter.com/LiZuSvAu0E — Maddow Blog (@MaddowBlog) February 16, 2018 She asks the question and seems to understand that the answer is “no, one” […]
Today in church in honor of the beginning of Black History Month (how is it February already!), we talked about race. We talked about what it really takes to be “woke” and how despite dismantling slavery we’ve never truly dismantled the lies that made it acceptable especially in the Christian church. It was powerful. As part of that it was also talked about how their needs to be understanding and community with all kinds of people, Christians should not be intentionally segregated. Thankfully that is not an issue for me, while making friends has always proved challenging I have always had a variety of friends I make friends with the young and old, black, white, and every other race, and many of my friends are all over the spectrum in terms of gender, politics, and religion. I love and appreciate it. I’m grateful that my friends constantly challenge me to see from a new perspective, it has been enriching to be a part of their stories.
What has always been challenging is how introverted I let myself be. Sometimes I get lonely, but I also recognize I enjoy being alone, a lot of time has been pleasantly spent by myself the only company being my crazy cat who is more than content to simply curl up and sleep. For example tonight, basically everyone is out getting ready to enjoy the super bowl with other people, even my husband who barely likes football. Instead I am home, very excited about a Domino’s order on its way deciding what movie I’m going to watch tonight. TAH (the awesome housemate) was making fun of me about it, but it’s not like I didn’t have options. I just didn’t want them.
Friendship has always been weird I crave it and yet I don’t always feel I have the full capacity to maintain it. Sure I have time, but I devote a lot of my time to my husband, then I’m working part time, I want to have space and flexibility to write, I have some responsibilities, and then I want some time to just be, that doesn’t always leave a lot of time to be with people. It’s funny I think I was more social when I was teaching, partially that’s because I wasn’t as depressed/wasn’t allowing myself to pay attention to how depressed I really was and because I spent so much time with people I didn’t want to be with, doing things I didn’t really want to do. I craved meaningful, joyful connection. Now that my work life is quieter and more enjoyable I don’t need as much distraction, hence spending Super Bowl Sunday delightfully alone.
I’m still working on the balance of being an introvert and being intentional with relationships. It’s something I’ll probably be playing around with for the rest of my life. And it does make the time I do spend with people that much richer. Since I spend limited time with others I do my best to be 100% present, I stay off my phone, I look you in the eyes when we talk, and I want to just really listen to you and enjoy you. I do recognize as well that as an introvert once you’re in my life I want to dig deep. Having a few friends I really know, love, and can count on, is way more important to me then having a lot of friends to hang out with. Because at the end of the day even when I can’t always see my friends due to distance, busyness, or introversion I know that I am deeply valued by them and deeply value them in return. So I may be alone not paying much attention to tonight’s Super Bowl (but trust me my loyalties still very much lie with the Patriots), I am in my own world content. Also my Domino’s order is on the road now, it’s going to be a good night.
I can probably count on one hand the things I have been late too in my life, I can also tell you many stories of panic inducing moments of when I thought I was going to be late, but because … Continue reading
So if you have been paying attention to my blog–and I’m quite grateful if you are one of the handful of people who has been,–you’ve probably noticed that my consistency has been all over the place. Having solid routines has … Continue reading
It’s the first day of 2018 and my biggest reflection on 2017: thank God it’s over. Seriously. I spent roughly 75% of the year miserable, a true statistic for any given day and made more true since that was about … Continue reading
I moved out of my childhood home approximately 3 years ago. It’s been about 2.5 years since I last spent a night there and slept in my former bed. On Saturday I spent the night at my parent’s place. It … Continue reading
As I sit here in the calm of the room, the only sounds being random street noises, the soft movements of my cat, and my Pandora station, I realize that it’s very rare I ever have the house to myself. … Continue reading
I’m going to get a little personal today and talk about money: specifically how we use it. I have been rolling around various thoughts in my head about what I should write about for this weeks blog post and really … Continue reading
Happy Halloween, lovely readers! Tomorrow I’ll be reflecting on this 31 day journey with a formal conclusion to the journey, but this is the last day and my heart is so full. Also if you’re following me on Instagram (which … Continue reading