Dear College Freshmen Juanita,
You are so anxious about this new part of life, even though you are commuting to a school less than 20 miles from home. But I get it, because I am still you, and transitions are hard. If it makes you feel better you’re 5 years older and you still can’t handle transitions without a healthy amount of stress, lots of hugs, and an embarrassing amount of crying. I get it.
But you really didn’t have anything to be anxious about. Sure you make friends who don’t stick around for long (don’t worry, you make friends much more easily than you realize, it’s a gift), but you’ll also make friends with people who are in it for the long haul.
That professor you got intimidated by when you sampled her course, turns out that’s mandatory for everyone in the English department to take, plus you end up loving her and taking a class with her almost every semester up until graduation.
Oh yeah, and you know how you’re thinking this will finally be your chance to date around and have some fun. Ha! Think again. People don’t do that at this school. They date forever and then they break up or get married. Or they’re just perpetually single. There is no in between. And despite all your protests and attitudes and trying to be SO independent, you end up falling in love and marrying your first boyfriend, but don’t worry you are still sassy and independent. It’s part of why he loves you.
You will get so close to Jesus in this time. You will also seriously question, your church, God, and the state of the world. It will strengthen you. You will have so many intense moments with God, and you will also find you feel connected to God even without the intensity. You will pray constantly. You will have many conversations about God with people of varying levels of faith and it will all be incredible.
You will meet your best friend in the world (literally this friendship will cross the world, and gosh you will just miss her, but you will care for and cherish this relationship SO much). You will make a number of amazing friends, but it will shock you how much this relationship grows and develops and stretches across state lines and time zones. You will call her your sister, and it’s true.
So don’t worry you will have your ups and downs, and the best year of college is coming up (Sophomore year, dude you even live on campus), and you’ll have fights and scares, and you’ll cry a lot. And I’m just as confused about life as you are now, trust me I did not expect that at 23 I would be taking care of a woman with dementia, watching all of my friends go off on adventures, while I get married,and oh yeah, my husband and I, we share a home with 3 other women. Life is weird. But you know you’re going to grow so much in your time there. You’re going to have so many adventures, laughs, and you’re going to learn. You’ll learn so much in and out of the classroom. And I still treasure everything I learned even the hard stuff. You might be anxious right now, but trust me these are going to be some super amazing years so enjoy them, cause soon enough you’ll be married and have debt to deal with and all the responsibility.
But yeah little college girl, things are going to be okay, because God’s got this, and even though you get the plans less and less, you let go of control more and more. So kiss and dream (and yes those stupid 3 AM adventures were SO worth it) and live, cause you’re going to college and it’s one of the best decisions you’ve ever made, trust me, I’ve been in your shoes.
All my love and glitter,
Future Mrs. Juanita