Perhaps

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


I feel like my husband and many other lovely people function off of the Great Perhaps, as I’ve decided to call it. These people always have a perhaps in mind. Perhaps when our lease is up we’ll go here, here, or here. Perhaps I should study this, pursue this job, run pell mell into this crazy new scheme.

Me, if I’ve worked up the energy to plan more than a month in advance I’m living on the wild side. I don’t really plan my life. The whole idea of long term goals overwhelms me. Sure I can make the most of today, I know that if I want to go on a trip 6 months away, I have to set aside money today. Mostly though I just kind of take some actions today, reach out to people, and take each day as it comes. Awkwardly though I love things to stay in place. Once I settle my short term plan I don’t like to variate, nothing bothers me more than changing plans. I don’t really function with perhaps, I like to function on this is the plan of the day let’s follow through.

My husband and my best friend (2 separate people!), always have the Great Perhaps, perhaps this will happen, or we will go this place. Let’s figure it all out a million years in advance and then still allow a million other options to come into play. I don’t get it.

I’m trying to function better with the Great Perhaps, if job searching has taught me anything it’s that life is horrendously stubborn and unplanned. There is always a perhaps, but I don’t have to like it!

Keep glittering,

Juanita

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Crash

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


Fun fact, I’ve been in two major car accidents in my life. One I saw coming the other totally sideswiped me. Both were utterly terrifying. There is nothing quite like the impact of a crash, you feel it through every fiber of your body and the whole thing unfolds in scary graphic detail (Unless you have the unfortunate aspect of passing out/being majorly injured). In both accidents the only injury I had was a seat belt burn. But those accidents have stuck in my mind and while I think the trauma of them is mostly resolved I think of the word crash and that’s where my mind goes.

I think of life feeling hopelessly fragile. I think of the sudden moment when you realize if things had happened differently I would have been dead. I think about how I’m in my early twenties and I still don’t know how to drive. On one hand it’s because I’m a busy city girl and especially in college, I just didn’t have a reason or convenient way to learn how to drive.

But I also know I’m afraid to crash. I’m afraid to have that potential threat be a part of my daily life. When my husband drives I feel utterly safe, like I’ve never felt with anyone else driving. When I’m riding the T, I have no fear of impact only hope that something won’t disrupt my commute.

I think of how I can be so afraid of the crash in general. I hate the idea of being sideswiped by life. A sudden death, a friend saying something that changes your life forever, a pregnancy when you’re just not ready, divorce, something so heavy with hate said in the midst of a fight, being fired. So many things can happen when you’re not expecting them (and even when we see it coming it still shocks our system). I wish I could tell you readers how to avoid the crashes in life. But I can’t because much like car accidents they’re not always our fault, sometimes when we do everything right we still get hit, and it’s so easy to forget that we should be so grateful it so easily could have destroyed us. But dear readers, you may not be able to avoid the hard crash of life, but there is One who understands so much. Who loves us and carries us through as we recover.

I’m talking about Jesus, he helps me through the crashes in my life, I can’t express how his peace has carried me through. How many crashes I overcame by his strength. Even those physical crashes, no one can make me doubt that the only reason I am alive today is God’s grace alone. How he lead me to this home, which has been such a healing place for me, a place of peace, somehow I lived here on only a part time income (that came EXACTLY when I needed it), and now it’s a home for my husband and I. I pray that you would also find your healing in the aftermath of the crash with him.

Blessings,

Juanita

Silence

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


I am very familiar with silence.

There’s the rich lovely silence of a moonlit night when the stars fill up the sky and take your breath away.

There’s the comfortable silence of sitting with someone you love and just enjoying the simple fact that you are together.

There’s the silence of many heads bowing and seeking the Lord’s face.

The silence of being alone in the house (interestingly enough, I’ve found this silence to be comforting and creepy at different times, when it’s creepy, I usually blast music)

There’s the silence when the tension and stress is so thick in the air and you’re so afraid to break because you fear whatever you say next will only make things worse.

The silence of someone you counted on and leaned on who just fades out of your life and you reach out and all you get in return is…silence.

As you might have guessed all those silences have occurred in my life. Some silences as you can imagine are quite enjoyable, others not so much. It’s so strange how silence in a relationship can mean so much, depending on the context, silence is comfort, joy, and ease; other times it’s heavy, overwhelming, and tense.

I hate breaking a silence negative or positive, but especially the negative silence. I’m always so fearful in that moment. Fearful I’ll be rejected, fearful that we will never overcome the tension, fearful I’m going to screw things up even further. I hope in my marriage, I have way more silences of peace and comfort. Peaceful silence I think is a secret to some of what ails this world. If we could just sit in our own thoughts, sit and enjoy nature, sit and simply listen to the beautiful silence I think so much of our stress would just wash away.

There are times when I’m just stressed and wired and developing a headache and realize that I haven’t just sat in the silence. I’ve been rushing around with people and noise all day and what I really need to do is sit and breathe in the silence. So for all my post grads going full throttle into life, don’t forget to just sit in the silence and be grateful for this moment, for this life, for this breath.

Joy

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


Unless you were crazy busy, living under a rock, or my husband, you have probably seen the incredible Pixar film, Inside Out. There is a delightful character named Joy, and as you would think Joy is overwhelming bubbly happiness. I’m not going to bore you with all the stuff I wrote back in this post.

I was thinking about some of the things that give me joy, be it the more contented joy I brooded on in my previous post or the overwhelming bubbly happiness joy. Both are good, both are needed. So I hope your week was joyful in both ways. Here are fifteen things in no particular order this week that gave me joy.

  1. A heart to heart with my good friend/housemate
  2. having a much needed video chat with the bestie
  3. Breakfasts with my husband
  4. setting up job interviews
  5. being around the crazy energy of kids after a long time of not
  6. steaming cups of cocoa and tea
  7. less time with Miss J (and her being in good moods during those times)
  8. working on a new project and getting feedback (positive and negative)
  9. praying and seeking
  10. reading books that make my heart heavy and inspire me
  11. giving my time to Freedom Massachusetts
  12. pondering more deeply on community
  13. blogging
  14. the beautiful fall foliage here and in NH
  15. clean laundry

What gave you joy this week?

Joy to all,

Juanita

Value

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


What a wild week, I think this word has been a central part of my week, and I hadn’t even realized it. What do I value? I value meals with people I love. I value respecting and caring for everyone I come across. Respect is huge because I only have a moment to offer people, but I can offer all people a smile, acknowledgement, some kindness. I value my God and spending focused quality time with him. I value being authentic in that I don’t just talk the talk, but I walk the walk. I value spending time with my husband. Due to working earlier in the morning this week, I was asleep before my husband came home and left the house before he got up, not having that time with him for half the week has been very disconnecting.

This week I was part of a phone bank with Freedom Massachusetts, a coalition that is working to update the anti-discrimination law for transgender people so that they will have legal protection in public spaces. Everyone has their opinions about transgender people, but I know a core part of my values and Christianity is to create a more just world, that means all people should be safe in public spaces and know that they will not be refused service simply because of who they are. Respect and dignity is a huge part of justice and this has been an issue running through my mind lately especially in regards to the LGBTQ community. It felt awesome to be a part of something to not just give lip service to my desire to fight discrimination, but to do something. Even more it made me feel powerful knowing that if our efforts succeed it will benefit someone I care about and love dearly.

More than anything I realize that a value is more than something you say you care about, but something that you do in response to your care. Something that I think is especially integral to my life as a Christian.

Share the love and spread the glitter,

Juanita

Wave

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


There are so many kinds of waves. Waves goodbye and waves hello. Light is made up of waves. Waves of the ocean. You make waves when you stand up for what you believe in. They all have their rhythm and flow.

Life has it’s rhythm and flow and I’m just doing my best to ride the wave and not look to the next one before I’m even there. Enjoy this beautiful picture of the ocean:

Glitter on,

Juanita

Honor

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


According to the Webster-Merriam dictionary honor means:

: respect that is given to someone who is admired

: good reputation : good quality or character as judged by other people

: high moral standards of behavior

The first thing I thought of with this word was my husband. One of the things I promised to do for my husband was to honor him (don’t worry, he promised the same thing to me). And one of the things I thought about was how we argue. Over the weekend a handful of people remarked on are arguing (some people were gracious enough to just let us sort it our among ourselves, thank you), because you know hearing people argue no matter how they do it is uncomfortable (and I won’t even try to pretend that we do it perfectly). What I find though is even in the midst of our bickering there is great love. You will often find us close to each other and even when we’re being stubborn and can’t understand each other, at our heart we do want to work as a team, we want what is best for one another. We don’t name call, we don’t scream at each other, we do our best to keep it between the two of us, and every argument ends with “I love you” often followed by “I’m sorry for being such a stubborn ass.”

And the more we practice the better we get at communicating. And while I could do with a little less misunderstanding, I’m so proud of how hard we try, as I’ve often said we aim for a BS free relationship. We speak our minds and well when you have two very different minds speaking it may take some work to come to agreement/understanding.

I honor him by keeping our arguments between us, by not complaining about him to my friends and family, by treating him well in the midst of our arguments, and by not hiding my truth. He does the same by me.

I think one day we’ll get to a point where we can simply talk through things, no arguing, no bickering, no stubborn head butting, until then I’m thankful we do our best to honor each other. So I apologize if you ever take a car ride with us and we start snapping about where we’re going to eat later (or whatever it is), we’re still figuring it out. No matter how awkward you might feel don’t be surprised if we’re glaring at each other as we hold hands. Don’t be surprised that once we have a breather the first words out of our mouths are, “I love you,” or “I’m sorry”.

We strive to love each other in the way that God loves us and while God, probably wouldn’t snap at you for not doing that thing I asked you to do three times already, God would certainly pull you in for a big hug and say “I forgive you.”

So that’s what we are doing in our marriage in big and small ways, how do you honor those around you? How do you honor others in the midst of the messy parts of life?

Worth

So I’m part of this 31 day challenge, I’ll write on a new topic every day . I hope to focus them around the theme of my blog (life after college), and hope that through these unique words/topics I’ll add some more glitter to the world, inspiration to myself and others, and have some fun. You can learn more about it here.


I don’t really have words for this word: worth, so today I’m just going to let my favorite singer speak some words about worth. Enjoy!

You were walking on the moon, now you’re feeling low
What they said wasn’t true, you’re beautiful
Sticks and stones break your bones, I know what you’re feeling
Words like those won’t steal your glow, you’re one in a million

This, this is for all the girls, boys all over the world
Whatever you’ve been told, you’re worth more than gold
So hold your head up high, it’s your time to shine
From the inside out it shows, you’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold, you’re gold)
You’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold, you’re gold)

When everybody keeps score, afraid you’re gonna lose
Just ignore they don’t know the real you
All the rain in the sky can’t put out your fire
Of all the stars out tonight, you shine brighter

This, this is for all the girls, boys all over the world
Whatever you’ve been told, you’re worth more than gold
So hold your head up high, it’s your time to shine
From the inside out it shows, you’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold, you’re gold)
You’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold, you’re gold)

So don’t let anybody tell you that you’re not loved
And don’t let anybody tell you that you’re not enough
Yeah there are days that we all feel like we’re messed up
But the truth is that we’re all diamonds in the rough

So don’t be ashamed to wear your crown
You’re a king you’re a queen inside and out
You glow like the moon, you shine like the stars
This is for you, wherever you are

Oh, oh, yeah, yeah, oh, oh,
You’re gold

This, this is for all the girls, boys all over the world
Whatever you’ve been told, you’re worth more than gold
(So hold your head) So hold your head up high,
It’s your time to shine
From the inside out it shows, you’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold, you’re gold)
You’re worth more than gold
(Gold gold you’re gold)

So don’t be ashamed to wear your crown
You’re a king you’re a queen inside and out