Desires of your heart

As people, not just twenty somethings, graduates, or students, we all desire things. Sometimes it’s simple. As a kid you just wanted ice cream or your parents to stop fighting. As adults, we want all that and more, and we … Continue reading

Getting out of your routine and into the world

That’s right I’m talking about travel. Your average twenty something inevitably will have a list of places they intend to visit in their lifetime. The west coast, the east coast, Texas, Canada, Hawaii, the UK, Australia, Egypt, Greece, the whole great big world. Everyone has different places they want to see, some are within a drive, some may require riding planes for close to a day.

Very soon my fiance and I are going to go on a trip to visit family and check in on the church we’re getting married in (we want to know if it’s still thinks we’re a good match (yes, that was a joke)). We will be driving. I am wildly excited.

I highly encourage travel, there is something about getting away from your life and going on an adventure that just energizes me. I loved being in my school’s Gospel Choir, not only for the worship, community, and singing, but also because every semester we would take a long weekend and travel to a section of the Eastern states and sing at a couple of churches. It was always so refreshing to break out of my routine and do something different all weekend. Inevitably when I came back everything felt fresh and new.

For me travel doesn’t have to be far to be worthwhile, growing up and even now the majority is spent to visit family. I don’t have to go to new places, I just need to get out of my routine for a few days, though I fully intend to do some more exotic traveling over the span of my life.

I totally understand and respect that traveling is not cheap though there are certainly many tips out there to travel on a budget, but value it. Make it happen, have a life that allows you to take time off, go explore that beach that’s two hours from your home, save up the money so you can go to the country of your dreams.

As college grads and life starters we’re often highly focused and creating a life we love, but don’t forget there are a million ways to live and it’s always good to shake out of your routine and do what other people do, life is too short to not explore a little.

Where do you want to go?

What’s on your travel dream list?

Do you have any favorite day trips?

How long does it take before you’re itching to go again?

Happy travels, don’t forget the glitter!

Juanita

Differing Perspectives

It’s been WAY too long, since my last post, but Easter is coming, and He is rising. Tomorrow Jesus is going to storm out of the tomb, and for that I am extremely grateful.

That said I’ve been thinking. Some themes in my life has been struggle, journey, taking the safe/easy road, and honestly just my own rottenness.

On the last point I have a short story. Basically I was on my way home and I was developing a headache and tired (had to pee too), and this blind man gets off the T. The door I’m about to go into. He asks for guidance to the red line. I say nothing. No else does. He repeats the question. Twice.

My neighbor needed help, and I knew I should help him, I had inner conflict about helping him, but I chose the easy way, the coward way, the not loving my neighbor way and I got on the T. Immediately I had this overwhelming sense that I had made the wrong decision. I did the only thing I could do: I prayed forgiveness.

I know I am forgiven, and I’ve learned from it. I know some will say it’s a little thing, but it was wrong, especially since I knew I should offer help.So that day I was faced with how rotten I am, and how the old habits are still there. Because righteousness and doing good are so much more than being polite, sometimes it is going above and beyond.

I don’t feel like I’m a good person lately, which is hard to take in. Not that I ever thought I was perfect, being a Christian puts to light how ugly humans are and how much we need a Savior, Jesus. But really, I just feel like I run from the hard path, I get caught up in petty things, I am loving and generous, but only when it’s convenient.

Here’s the thing I’ve seen though, God doesn’t look at me like that. He says me as the new creation. Of course, He always desires me to improve, we’re on a journey of holiness together, but he calls me good, born again, child, sinless. As long as I seek him and continue in relationship with him and earnestly go to him to be holy, missteps don’t matter. I learn from them, but they are no longer who I am.

And well the other day I had a house meeting with my roommates and we were just sharing about different things including our spiritual walks, and then we finished by praying for each other.

At one point one of my roommates prayed, basically thanking God for my presence in the house and my courage for trying new things and seeking and investing in community.

Those words are still echoing in my head. Courageous. Ha. I feel in most decisions, I hear God, I hem I haw, I question, finally reluctantly I take the first step. I don’t find that courageous. I seek community because sometimes it feels like I will literally die without it. I’m not kidding. I feel pointless without family, without connection, without community. Solitude has it’s time and place, but digging deep and investing in and sharing life with others is how I feel most alive.

So here I am about to get married, a recent college graduate, and I am figuring out how to be an adult, how to make my faith even more authentic and relevant in a life that gives me discomfort, confusion, and struggle. The joy is real though as is the peace. This life is good, I just need to embrace the struggle. And to remember my struggle is not that big a deal either, it could be so much worse, and it may be in the future, and hopefully by the grace of God I’ll face it.

Sometimes it’s good to hear what other people see in you, and embrace that. My actions may not look like courage to me, but maybe they show other people how to be courageous and challenge me to be the person others see. And God of course he always challenges us to be brighter, bolder, holier, more like him, which ultimately makes us that much more us and human.

I’m using all these perspectives to be the me I was created to be.

Glitter on,

Juanita