This day: September 11, always reminds me how precious life is. How important it is to show up in your own life and invest in others. How important it is to express how much people mean to you. September 11, … Continue reading
Can I be honest with you blogging world? Yes? Okay. I have a tummy. A round, curvy one that could look like I’m in the early stages of pregnancy. It’s chubby. It carries the weight I’ve put on since college, … Continue reading
I really want to post something fun, and it’s late and there is just too much SERIOUS thinking going on in this head of mine so here goes.
Here is what I’m currently…
The Bible (cause I’m trying to dig into it everyday, I’m currently reading Titus) and The Choice by Nicholas Sparks because Miss J had it, and I like romantic and wanted to see if he’s all that he’s cracked up to be. I have to say the story itself is sweet so far and fascinating looking at the choices made in a relationship, but the writing itself is really mundane, or even too much at times. It’s like we don’t have to hear everything the characters say, you can summarize, it’s okay.
Nothing. Sigh. Well, okay I write for this blog, and I write cover letters, cause I’m job searching, but stuff for me or to develop creatively. Nope and every day I don’t the harder it is to get back into.
Whatever is playing on the radio, I’ve been dancing most mornings in my room. Or I play Britt Nicole, she’s always got a song that speaks to my soul, or just gets my feet moving.
About life and what exactly is going to happen in roughly 7 weeks. Mostly I’m just trying not to worry, to cross of my to do list, to pray all the thoughts cause only God can handle them, and getting pumped for marrying the husband to be.
Time would move, 7 weeks feels like forever. And that I could have that full time job already. But you know it will all work out, and I’m going to make some unforgettable memories this summer.
That people will love our wedding. That this weekend celebrating with my brother will be fun. That I’ll gain some clarity on two things in my life that I just don’t know how to move forward with (sorry, being intentionally cryptic!)
My “livin’ the camp dream” t-shirt and a pair of shorts. Ahh, comfort.
To snuggle with my fiance tonight. A new job to show up. And a cat. Oh and for love and peace and joy to reign in the earth.
Water, I’m thirsty, but I’m going to finish this post first. Nothing else, I’m at peace in this moment of writing nonsense 🙂
That I should get to bed soon, content, and excited to spend the weekend with S and family (I know it’s only Tuesday).
Through all my WordPress favorites and facebook, always the facebook.
What are you currently up to?
That’s right I’m talking about travel. Your average twenty something inevitably will have a list of places they intend to visit in their lifetime. The west coast, the east coast, Texas, Canada, Hawaii, the UK, Australia, Egypt, Greece, the whole great big world. Everyone has different places they want to see, some are within a drive, some may require riding planes for close to a day.
Very soon my fiance and I are going to go on a trip to visit family and check in on the church we’re getting married in (we want to know if it’s still thinks we’re a good match (yes, that was a joke)). We will be driving. I am wildly excited.
I highly encourage travel, there is something about getting away from your life and going on an adventure that just energizes me. I loved being in my school’s Gospel Choir, not only for the worship, community, and singing, but also because every semester we would take a long weekend and travel to a section of the Eastern states and sing at a couple of churches. It was always so refreshing to break out of my routine and do something different all weekend. Inevitably when I came back everything felt fresh and new.
For me travel doesn’t have to be far to be worthwhile, growing up and even now the majority is spent to visit family. I don’t have to go to new places, I just need to get out of my routine for a few days, though I fully intend to do some more exotic traveling over the span of my life.
I totally understand and respect that traveling is not cheap though there are certainly many tips out there to travel on a budget, but value it. Make it happen, have a life that allows you to take time off, go explore that beach that’s two hours from your home, save up the money so you can go to the country of your dreams.
As college grads and life starters we’re often highly focused and creating a life we love, but don’t forget there are a million ways to live and it’s always good to shake out of your routine and do what other people do, life is too short to not explore a little.
Where do you want to go?
What’s on your travel dream list?
Do you have any favorite day trips?
How long does it take before you’re itching to go again?
Happy travels, don’t forget the glitter!
So my word for 2015 is seek. Which makes a lot of sense, because I feel like I am in the midst of and heading into some big adventures/journeys. What does 2015 entail: New faith journey: This is still unclear if it … Continue reading
I have always liked the idea of a word of the year.
It’s so powerful because words especially in the English language are so multi-layered and if it’s a verb (as mine is) there are a million words you can choose to go after it.
But before I share 2015’s word I have a few thoughts on this past year.
This past year was an incredible one. It was one of my best by far, and also one of the most challenging.
It taught me a lot about love, how to open my heart to people I may only know for a short time, how to better love my fiance, how to love my family and yet not continue my role as compliant child, how to love and be there for my friends without being used, and to open my heart to new love: namely Miss J, who despite having dementia still has much love to give and receive, and my new roommates who are such kind and godly women I am still amazed I found them. More than anything it taught me the power of action and presence, over words and intentions.
This year I was brave. I spoke in front of my entire school and shared my testimony, words that continue to shape me and keep me accountable. I went back to camp when I was scared that I would be lonely and miserable and postpone my future and wound up honestly having the best summer of my life. I decided to take a chance and let God know moving out would be amazing and he gave me a job and a place to go that have been major blessings and so easy even as they have greatly challenged me.
I prayed more than ever before, I’ve spent so much time in my prayer journal and on my knees than ever before. And I have such a long way to go, but my relationship with God is even stronger. He is the one I am leaning towards and choosing even when other things distract. The Holy One has guided me in so many ways, I’ve made decisions because I heard His voice, and while the path wasn’t always easy and some paths I’m still not sure what’s at the end of the journey, but the journey has given so much peace I know it’s only because of God.
I tried new things. I started this blog. I went on a trip to Baltimore with my best friend. I moved. I joined a group of women to not only create a whole play by sharing my personal stories, but I also committed to performing that play into the new year. I cooked a few meals all by myself. I watched more new shows and movies than I have in a long time. I said yes to adventures with friends and initiated adventures in a way I’ve always been to timid to push for.
So what is my word for 2015?
This morning I was reading my Bible a bunch of Scriptures that included the word seek. Honestly I have no idea why except that I could not sleep and simply longed for rest and to be in his presence. Among them I read Isaiah 55 which is aptly titled “Invitation to the Abundant Life”.
That is what I long for. Oh, I feel so close some days and so far others. On a slightly unrelated topic my fiance reminded me last night that as long as I keep moving upwards as I keep striving to be better that’s what truly matters. Mistakes happen, I’m human, but what is the bigger picture of my life?
That is why I choose seek for next year.
I want to seek the Holy One’s presence.
I want to seek love.
I want to seek the opportunities that God has for me.
I want to seek out the broken, the hurt, and the unloved, and give to them out of unconditional love.
I want to seek the life that I’m meant to live regardless of what my family thinks or how uncomfortable it is.
I want to seek challenges because if I’m not growing, I’m dying.
I want to seek, I don’t want to wait, to worry, to fester, but to seek and go after whatever will help me best live a life that glorifies the Holy One and offers unconditional love to everyone I interact with.
Seek. My word for 2015 a year that’s already set up for great things between my fiance and I getting married, being a part of this Women in the Bible play, and everything in between. I’m going to seek with all my heart.
What’s your word for 2015?
P.S. Since I’m going away to my grandmother’s for the next few days and will not have access to the internet, I will not be writing again until the new year, for now feel free to go back and look through old posts, comment and share your words, or to take your own break. Thank you so much for reading, it has been such an encouragement to me.
Hooray it’s glitter Thursday once again! This one is tinged with a bit of sadness, though. Tonight I will be heading off to camp to start training for mentoring girls over the next 8 weeks. I am nervous and excited and hope that whatever comes I can handle it. I did it last year, I can do it again. Still I’m praying a lot and doing my best to take every moment one day at a time.
As a result I plan on blogging and updating you all about my camp adventures and thoughts on post college life, but it will be sporadic, so make sure you are following me! I hope once the summer is through this blog gets a lot bigger and more focused. I appreciate everyone who has been following and encouraged me in this new endeavor. Not sure when next time will be, but see you in the blogosphere!
So like many bloggers out there I am an aspiring author. I clarify aspiring author, because I am a writer, hence my blog, hence the things I’ve written, hence my need to write down everything and anything.
I have not always wanted to be published, but it’s now a grand goal of mine.
Earlier I was working on my manuscript (so fancy) and I was like wow I’m actually a pretty good writer. And I’m getting better everyday. It also helps that I have some majorly lovely people in my life who help me edit. Behind every great writer is a great editor.
I feel in a good place though because I know I still have room for improvement, but by and large my old writing used to make me want to barf. It was trash and boring and droll and all these sad negative adjectives. I think way more positive words now when I write especially when I actually make it to the end.
Still I wonder why do I have these dreams of glitter. Why do I want to join the publishing game and try and get my words out there?
Then I remember I love reading. LOVE reading. SO much.
I want to give back. I can’t tell you how many times I have read something beautiful and felt less alone. I’ve felt understood and safe. How many times I’ve been cheered up or comforted by a book when I needed it most. How many times I’ve gone to a book to learn something, to gain a solution, to finally sort out how to finish that quilt or make that cake.
Reading is so wonderful and gives so much. I have bonded with writers who I will never meet could never meet through words. I’ve read bloggers who have inspired me to share my voice and take action in this world. I want to be just a small part of that if I can because I think finally I have something worthwhile to share, that has not always been why I write, but it is why I am seeking publishing.
Any other writers out there figuring out the whole writing for fun, writing for publication, and how blogging does or does not fit into that?
Why do you write?
Why do you publish?
Why do you blog?
Something to add a bit of shine to your day, also Britt Nicole is pretty much my favorite Christian artist out there by a long shot.
I like glitter. I like shine. And like Mandy Hale I think the best glitter is that which comes from within.
Jesus called us to be the light of the world, it’s something beautiful, holy, and true within us, it’s not artificial or fake and we can only set it free when we know who He is.
I’m not sure why I’m focused on glitter. I’ve liked it as much as anyone over my life, but I’ve never been obsessed. Somehow though glitter speaks to my soul right now. I want to spread it wherever I go, like last Thursday I talked about how glitter never dies, it’s both it’s blessing and it’s curse. As anyone who’s ever used glitter you know you can make a beautiful creation, but for days afterward everything you touch gets glitter on it. That’s what a life lived abundantly looks like, everywhere you touch love comes out. That’s the plan anyway.