I’m Here Cause I Care, Angst and All

So I was reminded today why I originally applied for this job and haven’t fully taken teaching off the table (though don’t get your hopes up). Which is good because there has been a lot of angst on this blog … Continue reading

Angst

Surprisingly this word has only come up twice before in my blog and was only briefly used. If you know me, I use this word frequently to describe my moods. According to the Merriam Webster Dictionary angst is– a strong feeling of being worried or nervous : a feeling of anxiety about your life or situation. AKA the tune of my life.

Of course there is the Bible that says: Don’t worry, cause the birds, the flowers, the grass, they don’t work and I care for them oodles, don’t forget you’re way more important than a bird, even penguins.

And of course, stress is bad for your health, your mind, and basically your livelihood.

And while I am much wiser with stress and angst than I was even just last year, currently my life is rife with angst. This post is simply to reach out to those around me, my glitter gang and say it’s okay. Not that you should angst perpetually, please don’t. But angst is a normal part of life, even for well adjusted college graduates.

We often hear the word to define the teenage years sometimes to simply pooh pooh and say oh those angsty teenagers. But having gone through it, and still navigating it being full of angst sucks. Knowing your making yourself crazy with worry sucks. Feeling huge stress about your problems and the worlds problems (because somehow those always get dragged in too) sucks.

You know my favorite scripture for a long time has been Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thy heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths.

While it’s been on my heart since my early teen years I am still learning what it means to acknowledge Him and free Him and myself up for God to make the paths. So I’m stressing about minor things in my wedding planning. I’m mulling anxiously over what life will be like with my new husband. I’m desiring this wedding to be pleasing to God, but just kind of hoping that everyone doesn’t totally hate it. I’m wondering if I’ll ever get a job that I actually love to the core, instead of one that has a nice surface. I’m wondering what God has for me in terms of ministry, church, marriage, and life at large. I have some things to sort out with friends and family with communication and relationship and it’s heavy on my heart. I’ve got angst. I’m not afraid to say it, pray about it, or express it. So for those of you in the mid 20s age with a college degree and a dream in your heart who also have more angst than they’d like to admit. I feel you, let’s ride the wave together, cause after every bout of angst is a rainbow!!!!10325302_10202638709022052_406661364281255000_n

Or more realistically: peace, at least for the moment.

Glitter on,

Juanita

PS Enjoy, this great Potter Puppet Pals clip about wizard angst, the most magical form of moodiness.